KASURADA-身心平衡工作室

這幾天感冒非常嚴重，引發了支氣管發炎，咳個不停，夜裡咳到無法睡覺，真是難受啊…所有的事都需暫且停下來；這時的情緒也會無意識地低落，無名的憂鬱起來…  

我的內在小孩似乎掉落到一種莫名的不安，這兩天的情緒總是憂憂鬱鬱地…，有時候這種莫名的不安和恐懼是來自很深層的潛意識，有可能是來自於我原生家庭無意的傷害，也有可能是來自於對前世某些記憶，到底是從那來的記憶或傷害都沒有關係，只要我願意面對這種無名的不安和恐懼一切皆可以療癒。  

今天早上喝了一些花精穩定情緒，接下來是做內觀和靜心陪伴我的內在小孩；在這過程中我看到自己和內在小孩處在一個漩渦裡，不停地在漩渦裡打轉，我靜靜地看著我的內在小孩，我感受到那種不安、恐懼和害怕…我告訴她，我了解妳現在的感受，我會在這裡陪著妳，直到妳不害怕…過了一會還是在漩渦裡打轉，但，我觀察到我的內在小孩已不再害怕，她看著我，對著我笑；我說：妳看沒事的…我會一直陪著妳；過沒多久我們倆從漩渦裡流入到平靜的大海裡，很平靜地在大海裡漂浮著，我們倆微笑對看著，手牽者手上岸，這時我發現天父(阿爸)出現擁抱著我們，突然有一股暖流進入我的心，充滿溫暖和喜悦，這就是「愛」，一種「圓滿的愛」。  ~~Stella~~

For the past few days, I have had a bad cold that turned into bronchitis. I coughed so much that I was not even able to sleep at night. And it has got so bad that I literally had to stop everything I was doing. My spirit was unknowingly low and I felt very depressed without any specific reasons. My inner child also seemed having somewhat of an anxiety and was feeling depressed these past two days. I guess the anxiety and fear comes from a very deep unconscious. They might be caused by the traumas that my biological family unintentionally gave me or some memories from the last life.   However, it does not really matter what the reason is. As long as I will be able to bravely overcome the anxiety and fear, then I know I can be healed. 
     This morning I took some flower essences to help myself calm my emotions. Following that, I spent some time getting in touch with my inner child by practicing vipassana and quieting my mind. During this process, in my mind, I saw myself and my inner child being caught and spinning incessantly in a whirlpool. I quietly observed my inner child and sensed insecurity and fears. So I told my inner child that I understood how she felt and I would be with her till she stopped being scared. After a short while, I could still see us spinning in the whirlpool. But my inner child was not afraid anymore. She looked at me with a smile. I then said to her, "See, I told you. Everything is gonna be alright and I will be with you." Not for long, we entered to a peaceful sea from the whirlpool and floated in it. We then smiled at each other and walked out of the sea onto the beach hand in hand. At that moment, I felt our heavenly father showed up and hugged us. Suddenly, i opened to the flow of joy inside my heart and it welled up with warmheartedness and rejoice. Deep down inside, I know is love-- the complete love.